Why I posted S.H.E.'s song

The song had the lyrics of no love is above freedom, to somewhat extent they are right, except that love the God (not a god, as in the case of apollo) is worth giving up freedom for, doing God's will is somewhat like giving up your freedom, however, it seems that God also loves us to give us freedom (free will) and it all ties in somehow.

To this date, I have to say that I am still very very confused about love. I'm not exactly straight in the very straight sort of way in love. Even though I am bisexual but the fact that Christ deemed homosexuality to be a sin still unnerves me. If you think about it though in the terms of evolution, homosexuality is not normal. The thing that made me finally coming to terms with it is that you should hate the sin but still love the person. I guess the fact that even though it's a sin people still do it, I mean we still have murders, fornication, adultery among other things, Christians and non-Christians alike. I myself struggle with the vice of lust which really frustrates me and the only way of coming to terms with it is through God and praying often.

I guess being a Christian does not mean we are better than other people, it's more like we recognize that we are sinful and needs God's help to be good. That's why I think people who are atheists are arrogant as they think they can be good enough without God. Like I'm not very successful with alleviating poverty or fornication or murders I guess the only thing is that you can try to convince them but ultimately I call upon God to change their ways.


I dislike people who are militant atheist, for all they criticize Christian evangelists, they are doing the same thing they claim to hate, to turn people to a particular set of beliefs. That is very hypocritical.

I've lately been struggling with whether to have a simple life or to achieve more. I'm beginning to lean against the simple life, it's sad to me, but I guess not everyone can be Mother Teresa, I just have to do what I can and hope the acts of loving people like God loves will turn them to God. Then again, life is not simple, I've been called a complex and chaotic person, and we all are.

To make an arch, relating to the beginning paragraphs, I guess I haven't really felt that love for a significant other. Perhaps I'm just too lazy to find someone, perhaps I feel like Daphne in the video, there's no love above freedom (except Jesus Christ's love). There might be a day I'm ready to walk down the aisle but it's not gonna be anytime soon. The plan of that I will leave to God. I guess hope is not lost for me yet.

Although side note, I enjoy watching other couples, like Nana and Jason (they're a celebrity couple in China) but really genuine love makes me smile. (another reason I struggle with the gay marriage issue)