strange dream

had a very strange dream about full metal alchemist
the girl was xiao mei, but she had a tiger instead of a panda
I was the mechanic girl. Xiao was able to teleport via metal things.
She also went to school and had everything right on homeworks. It was strange.

God's grace

so today I did some charitable things and talked to some homeless men.
for privacy sake we will call them Carter and Angelo.
So I ask them where their families were and how long they were in DC.
I think carter told me he's been in DC for 30 years and Angelo told me he was born there in 56 so for almost 54 years.
Carter had family elsewhere with 2 sisters and parents and he goes back there every year. We chatted a bit about how they came to be homeless and then I had to go and catch the metro.
I totally forgot to mention National Student Partnership and seriously need to do that.
Angelo was a musician and could play 23 instruments but his instruments are in a pawn shop.
I praised God for blessing me with everything that I have and hope God will watch and bless over these men.

Yesterday I participated in the smile day to set a record at the archives metro entrance which was fun. I need to smile more.

Why I posted S.H.E.'s song

The song had the lyrics of no love is above freedom, to somewhat extent they are right, except that love the God (not a god, as in the case of apollo) is worth giving up freedom for, doing God's will is somewhat like giving up your freedom, however, it seems that God also loves us to give us freedom (free will) and it all ties in somehow.

To this date, I have to say that I am still very very confused about love. I'm not exactly straight in the very straight sort of way in love. Even though I am bisexual but the fact that Christ deemed homosexuality to be a sin still unnerves me. If you think about it though in the terms of evolution, homosexuality is not normal. The thing that made me finally coming to terms with it is that you should hate the sin but still love the person. I guess the fact that even though it's a sin people still do it, I mean we still have murders, fornication, adultery among other things, Christians and non-Christians alike. I myself struggle with the vice of lust which really frustrates me and the only way of coming to terms with it is through God and praying often.

I guess being a Christian does not mean we are better than other people, it's more like we recognize that we are sinful and needs God's help to be good. That's why I think people who are atheists are arrogant as they think they can be good enough without God. Like I'm not very successful with alleviating poverty or fornication or murders I guess the only thing is that you can try to convince them but ultimately I call upon God to change their ways.


I dislike people who are militant atheist, for all they criticize Christian evangelists, they are doing the same thing they claim to hate, to turn people to a particular set of beliefs. That is very hypocritical.

I've lately been struggling with whether to have a simple life or to achieve more. I'm beginning to lean against the simple life, it's sad to me, but I guess not everyone can be Mother Teresa, I just have to do what I can and hope the acts of loving people like God loves will turn them to God. Then again, life is not simple, I've been called a complex and chaotic person, and we all are.

To make an arch, relating to the beginning paragraphs, I guess I haven't really felt that love for a significant other. Perhaps I'm just too lazy to find someone, perhaps I feel like Daphne in the video, there's no love above freedom (except Jesus Christ's love). There might be a day I'm ready to walk down the aisle but it's not gonna be anytime soon. The plan of that I will leave to God. I guess hope is not lost for me yet.

Although side note, I enjoy watching other couples, like Nana and Jason (they're a celebrity couple in China) but really genuine love makes me smile. (another reason I struggle with the gay marriage issue)

Laurel tree goddess

Lyrics :
月桂女神
yue gui nv shen
Laurel Tree Goddess

傳説漫長 浩瀚如史詩般
chuan shuo man chang, hao han ru shi shi ban
Passing on the vast history

記載這段 惶惶不安
ji zhai zhe duan, huang huang bu an
Recording this disturbance

顔色金黃 阿波羅的光芒
yan se jin huang, a po luo de guang mang
The golden rays of Apollo

卻比不上 達芙妮的勇敢
que bi bu shang, da fu ni de yong gan
Cannot be compared to Daphne’s courage

沒有一種愛 可以
mei you yi zhong ai, ke yi
There is no love which can be

在自由 之上
zai zi you, zhi shang
Above freedom

達伕尼的傷 化身
da fu ni de shang, hua shen
Daphne’s pain has transformed

月桂樹 倔強
yue gui shu, jue qiang
Into the laurel tree’s stubborness

月桂樹飄香 那夜風戀月光
yue gui shu piao xiang, na ye feng lian yue guang
The laurel tree’s fragrance, the wind and the moonlight of that night

我的愛 很不一樣
wo de ai, hen bu yi yang
My love is very different

素淨的臉上 從不抹濃妝
su jing de lian shang, cong bu ma nong zhuang
On my calm face, I never wiped away my make-up

堅持 自己喜歡
jian chi, zi ji xi huan
Persisting on my likes

月桂樹飄香 雲纏繞星光
yue gui shu piao xiang, yun chan rao xing guang
The laurel tree’s fragrance revolves around the stars

我要 有話就講
wo yao, you hua jiu jiang
I want to say what I want to say

無邊的海洋 那遼闊的想像
wu bian de hai yang, na liao kuo de xiang xiang
The boundless seas and thoughts

比誰 都不平凡
bi shui, dou bu ping fan
Is more extraordinary than anyone

森林河畔 阿波羅在追趕
sen lin he pan, a bo luo zai zhui gan
In the forest and lakes Apollo is chasing

哭著戴上 達芙妮的桂冠
ku zhe dai shang, da fu ni de gui guan
Crying, wearing daphne’s laurel crown

被束縛的愛 已經
bei shu bo de ai, yi jing
The fettered love has already

沒有了 溫暖
mei you le, wen nuan
Been void of gentleness

達芙妮的傷 心疼
da fu ni de shang, xin teng
Daphne’s broken heart

千年間流轉
qian nian jian liu zhuan
A thousand years of past

月桂樹飄香 那夜風戀月光
yue gui shu piao xiang, na ye feng lian yue guang
The laurel tree’s fragrance, That night wind and moonlight

我的愛 很不一樣
wo de ai, hen bu yi yang
My love is very different

素淨的臉上 從不抹濃妝
su jing de lian shang, cong bu ma nong zhuang
On my calm face, I never wiped away my make-up

堅持 自己喜歡
jian chi, zi ji xi huan
Persisting on my likes

月桂樹飄香 雲纏繞星光
yue gui shu piao xiang, yun chan rao xing guang
The laurel tree’s fragrance revolves around the stars

我要 有話就講
wo yao you hua jiu jiang
I want to say what I want to asy

無邊的海洋 那遼闊的想像
wu bian de hai yang, na liao kuo de xiang xiang
The boundless seas and thoughts

比誰 都不平凡
bi shui, dou bu ping fan
Is more extraordinary than anyone

愛搖晃 愛靠岸
ai yao huang, ai kao an
Wavering love

我航向前方 尋找桂冠
wo hang xiang qian fang, xun zhao gui guan
I sail forward, finding my laurel crown

Trip to the UK

So I'm not exactly sure how our German trip managed to get so many places down even though we were only there for 2 weeks (that was around 4 years ago) but here's what I have for my UK trip.

Main idea was to get to England, Scotland and Wales.

Wales
Cardiff

Scotland
Edinburgh
Isle of Skye
Stirling
Highlands (Loch Ness and other places)

England
Oxford
York
Durham
Salisbury
Manchester

What I did this weekend

So as not to forget the weekend of March 27-29th I did the following things:

Friday:
Did a presentation for health policy cup in front of a panel of judges, didn't go too well though, oh well

went to wharton china association's culture night, it was great :) there were some very interesting performance like the skit about the thief company (which was kind of like oral interp, except in Chinese), great food also, my favorite chinese bread was there and it was really yummy :)

went to relay for life afterward, arrived just in time for changing of the candles from HOPE to CURE

Saturday:
Our christian fellowship's creator/creation night
performed a dance on you raise me up
also took pictures, need to get those up

Sunday:
planning on finishing the newsletter for PUG and also go to Chinese music society's show

Tenth presbyterian sermon

For reasons only known to myself, I missed church for a second time today.
So this one is from last week from Dr. Paul Tripp about complaining.

We apparently complain about not having things to wear when we see our closet full of clothes or when we open our refrigerators and complain that we don't have a thing to eat. While others in the world of course, literally don't have anything to eat.