the 101 blog

Apparently, after I imported this blog into facebook, I now have over 100 posts on my blog. I suppose I should celebrate as I promised myself that someday I would actually write regularly and live something for people to remember me by.

I do doubt whether this should be imported into facebook though. A lot of my tortured thoughts are in it. Likely currently I'm feeling really depressed because I still haven't been able to get my draft proposal done for my paper on the recent milk powder disaster in China finished. Or the fact that probably due to the lack of sleep, I feel just exhausted and missing China again. Something in me just wish that I could drop all of this and curl up with a book that I want to read and sleep as long as I want. Or that I could go back to when I was carefree....although it's a bit difficult to think back to a time like that, it always seems like I've been goal-oriented.

I just sincerely wish from my heart that I could be happy and hopeful. A cloud of darkness still surrounds my soul somehow and the only time it has seen light was when I was in China. I may perhaps have left my heart in China.

A look into a soul is a scary thing, tread lightly upon this blog.